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This song put a few words in my mouth. Even if they are distorted from the song’s original meaning, they have given me a way to describe my trip. It is kind of like a parable.

They way I see it, I am standing in the shallows of my Father’s ocean. I can feel His waves crashing on my feet and it feels so good. In fact, it is one of the best feelings I have ever felt. Sometimes, I go a little bit deeper but the water is so cold, it is hard to go much farther. Right now, I am content where I am. I have the good feeling of my Father’s ocean flowing around my feet but I also have the comfort and safety that comes with being in the shallows.

But now, my Father has asked me to go deeper. I ask Him why and He tells me there is something beautiful underneath the water. There is something down there that I cannot even imagine up where I am. I tell Him that He is crazy. I need air to breathe and breath to live. He replies that I am the crazy one. If I will trust Him, He will show me a life that does not depend on air. He says that there is something better waiting on the other side of a decision to trust Him.

I ask Him if there are sharp rocks in the deeper water. He says yes, and that is another reason to put my trust in Him. Still scared, I ask if there are sharks and man-eating sqids and… He stops me and asks me one more time to trust Him.

I have made the decision to jump in. On September 19, I will submerge. Right now, I am taking a really long deep breath.